Peter Baklinski


Finding life after abortion, Part II: at rock bottom, and nowhere else to turn but God

Peter Baklinski

Read Part I of this story, The Decent into Hell, here.

ORANGE, California, January 13, 2012 ( – The young woman, broken by abortion, knew that doing things her own way had only led her down a path of destruction. Overwhelming anguish, drug-addiction, and loose living had reduced Ma’May Faucher, 33, to a mere shell of a person. With no place to live, Ma’May’s only hope was a Gospel-based restoration and rehabilitation program that had been generously offered to her by the Christian parents of her drug-addict boyfriend.

Ma’May’s heart leapt at their offer. “I knew it was my only chance. I was so sick of being sick and tired,” she told She had come to a point where she knew beyond a doubt that her life choices had only worked against her. “What could it hurt to try it God’s way?” she reasoned.

Ma’May credits God with helping her to rebuild her life. “God literally plucked me out of my Egypt and freed me from my yoke of slavery to drugs,” she said.

Now she wanted to do something with her life that would help other people. Her mother, whom she reconciled with, suggested that Ma’May become an ultrasound technologist. The timing was right.

Ma’May’s schooling provided an occasion for more healing. She learned about prenatal development. She learned that her own 8-week-old baby had over 90% of his or her anatomical structures on the day of the abortion. As an ultrasound technologist intern at a hospital where most of her patients were pregnant women, Ma’May fell in love with the babies she saw. Her remorse about her decision to abort grew with every prenatal ultrasound she performed.

She wondered why the nurse in the abortion clinic had not shown her the beating heart of the baby inside her. Ma’May says she was “sickened” to learn that she had not been given all of the information about what people had called her ‘choice.’

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She began to realize why she felt so terrible about her choice. “I should have been given the courtesy and consideration to have full knowledge rather than feel duped and misled about my choice,” she said. “Was I not strong enough or smart enough to be given the facts? Wasn’t I worth that? If the choice truly was mine then I deserved to know all the facts.”

Around this time, a graphic abortion video showed Ma’May precisely how her tiny baby had been violently torn apart limb from limb. She became infuriated that Planned Parenthood had not even given her the credit to make an educated decision with all the facts placed before her.

Ma’May came to the somber realization that no one truly loved her on the day she aborted her baby.

“If I had been shown the reality of my decision I guarantee that I would have brought my baby to term. I do not know if I would have chosen to parent or if I would have made an adoption plan, but I would not be regretting my abortion still to this day. I began healing all over again after realizing what I did to my baby. And I am still healing.”

Ma’May found further healing by using her ultrasound skills at a pro-life medical clinic that counseled and offered life-affirming choices and resources to abortion-minded women. She was gratified to see many women choose life after seeing for themselves the great treasure each carried within. But there were some that would choose abortion despite having seen and heard their baby’s beating heart. This left Ma’May feeling “baffled and distraught.” She knew all too well what these women were going through.

Her desire to reach out more to women in crisis led her to work for the Center for Bio-ethical reform in 2009 where she became an advocate for effective strategies to end abortion.

Ma’May has recently married a God-fearing man and now works as a middle school religion teacher. She believes that her new-found life in Christ has made her into a “new creation.” She sees that her capacity for love, joy, and fulfillment has only increased because of the purpose that she has found in God.

Gregory Grimm, Ma’May’s husband, says he greatly admires his wife’s courage as she faced what he called the “painfully vivid photographic proof of what her past decision meant.” He also admires his wife’s concern for young people that impelled her to share her personal testimony with college and university students.

“I definitely think Ma’May’s story needs to be told. One of the most important components to the fight against abortion is revealing how it hurts women deeply and that its cost is far greater than parenting or making an adoption plan for their child,” he said.

Ma’May believes that abortion is tolerated chiefly because people do not know what abortion truly is. That is why she is not afraid to put herself out on the front lines and compassionately show people the reality of abortion, especially with the use of vivid tools such as the Genocide Awareness Project.

“I regret that I will never get to know my son or daughter. My child would have been 11 years old now and I will never know if he or she would have liked to play piano or guitar, would have liked to play soccer or baseball, would have liked poetry or art, or maybe would have liked to sing like me.”

Ma’May is convinced that if her testimony reaches just one person who felt like she felt, experienced what she experienced, and wants to find healing as she found healing, than it makes it all worthwhile to her.

To that one person, Ma’May says: “Make your choice based on the whole truth. It may seem daunting to make a life decision, but in my case, I truly do regret rejecting the life that was inside me. If I could do one thing over in my lifetime, it would be to have chosen life for my baby.”

“I regret my abortion but I do not regret my redemption and salvation in Jesus Christ. Only in God am I able to have the strength to share my story. It is no longer my testimony to share. I give it back to God to use for his benefit.”

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