Peter Baklinski

Grandfather's 1982 pro-life poem saves great-grandchild from being aborted

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RIVERSIDE, California, December 7, 2012, (LifeSiteNews.com) – Sarah Fisher, 25, could never understand why when she was a little girl, her mother would always become teary-eyed when she would wish for an older brother. Sarah was the oldest of five, but she remembers feeling “so deprived for not having an older brother.”

“I would tell my mom how much I wanted an older brother,” she told LifeSiteNews.com in an interview. “It was never an older sister, it was always an older brother. She would always tear-up every time I mentioned it.”

It wasn’t until Sarah was 18 and taking steps to attend college that she learned the cause of her mother’s tears.

Sarah learned that she did have an older sibling, but not in this world. He had been aborted while her mother was still in high school.

“I was shocked by her story, because I had been raised pro-life,” she said. “But at the same time, I saw how this explained many things that I had never been able to understand about my mother. It wasn’t until recently that I learned more specifics about the incident from my mother.”

The First Crisis-Pregnancy

In the early 1980’s Sarah’s mom, Susan, attended a private Catholic high school in southern California. Susan’s parents were devout Catholics and involved in pro-life activities. They became foster parents to multiple children, including a few children from overseas who had health problems.

Susan at 16 was “very beautiful and very outgoing,” Sarah said. Susan, the oldest of six children, began dating a football jock and soon became pregnant. The boyfriend pressured Susan into visiting a Planned Parenthood clinic to put an end to the pregnancy .

“He sent one of his friends with her (since he supposedly had something else to do) and my mom went, unwillingly, and got the abortion,” Sarah said.

Sarah learned how her mother had been “in a state of absolute shock and disarray” when she returned to school after the abortion and how the boyfriend “instantly broke up with her.”

Sarah heard how her mother was “so numb” from the abortion experience that she “simply didn’t care” about the breakup. She learned how her mother turned to “drugs, alcohol, and partying” as the pain of the abortion slowly began to sink in.

A Grief-Letter and a Poem

In her pain, Sarah’s mother wrote a letter to the boyfriend about her abortion, hoping to “make him feel the hurt and anguish that she was feeling.”

But the letter was intercepted by Susan’s brother and ended up in the hands of Susan’s father — Sarah’s grandfather.

“I can only imagine what he felt,” Sarah said. “There are rumors in our family of his reaction, rumors about an anger that almost drove him to violence against the boyfriend, and rumors about the hurt that he was feeling on behalf of his daughter.”

Sarah learned that instead of violence, her grandfather chose to write a poem for his hurting, 16-year-old post-abortive daughter.

In the poem, the grief-stricken father relays to his wounded daughter his “agony of watching her slide toward a one-way rut.” He lays the blame on himself for her misfortunes and admits his “share” of “guilt.”

Little did the father know that the last few lines of his poem would ultimately alter the destiny of his daughter, his grandchildren, and his great-grandchildren. They read:

I read a poem a while ago about a test she failed.
Though eloquent it surely was, the logic somehow trailed.

As if life granted one big test — and then the Judgement made,
we’d never have a second chance, nor values we could trade.

Thank God it doesn’t work that way. Thank God there’s other chances —
to Accept Him as He said, The Vine, and take our place as Branches.

But if you only understood how much He loves you!
Why He hung on that cross!
How much He wants you back!
If you only understood how much He wants you back!
I’m sorry for hurting you so much.
I love you.

Putting Puzzle-pieces Together

It was not until last week that Sarah learned of the existence of this poem and the restoration it effected in her mother. She learned how the poem had changed her mother’s life, offering her a ray of hope, opening up to her a new horizon that transcended the bleakness of her shattered life.

“The poem is the very reason why my mother managed to heal and become so positive again,” she said.

Sarah learned how her mother came to “regret that abortion with everything in her,” and that she used that “awful experience to bring up pro-life children.”

“It was then that I understood why Mom had lectured me, as I was growing up, the pro-life way that she had,” she said. “I now knew why she had tried so hard to instill in us pro-life values.”

It was just last week that Sarah put the pieces of the puzzle of her own life together regarding a ‘choice’ that she was faced with five years ago.

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The Second Crisis-Pregnancy

At 20, Sarah had finished college and had been accepted into university on a scholarship. She was also dating and being intimate with her boyfriend, Jared. Not long before heading off to university, Sarah discovered that she was pregnant.

“I was so scared at that time that if I had walked into a Planned Parenthood, I probably would have had an abortion,” she confessed.

But Sarah knew what abortion had done to her mother. She did not want to “go through that kind of pain.”

Because of her mother’s own crisis pregnancy and the horrible way it had ended, she felt a sense of urgency to tell her mother about her own crisis pregnancy.

“It felt like this sense of protection to tell my mother, ‘Hey, I’m pregnant.’ I somehow knew that by telling her, it would strengthen me to not make the mistake that she regretted so much,” she said. “But I remember the temptation to visit a nearby Planned Parenthood was so strong.”

In the end, Sarah told her mother the difficult news and found the support she needed. She was also glad to have the support of her boyfriend who was open to the new life they had created together.

They were at first going to give up their little one for adoption, but two weeks before the birth they decided to marry and raise the baby themselves.

Sarah completed her university degree in English and History with little Isaac (whose name means laughter) nestled into her lap during class. Sarah and Jared are now the proud parents of three beautiful children.

Sarah knows that Isaac would not be alive today if she had not been taught to respect life by her mother. She knows that if her mother had not been open about the crisis pregnancy and abortion she had experienced 30 years ago, then she would not have been able to be open about her own crisis pregnancy.

“I know that I wouldn’t be so gung-ho pro-life and that my own crisis pregnancy would not be alive and happy today if it hadn’t been for my mother’s witness and protection of me,” she said.

Sarah believes that her grandfather, who died when she was 11, had “something to do” with her choosing life during her crisis pregnancy. She now sees that his poem planted seeds of healing in her mother. These seeds produced in her mother the fruit of healing, self-forgiveness, compassion, and respect for life. She saw that this fruit was passed onto herself and her siblings who learned from their mother about the value of life and the pain caused by abortion.

It dawned on Sarah that her precious Isaac would not be with her today had it not been for the love and compassion shown to her mother by her grandfather through the love-poem that he wrote to her so long ago.

Sarah further believes, that her older sibling who was aborted — who was named Michael — also had “something to do” with her choosing life.

“I think it was my older brother’s spiritual hand on my shoulder that steered me away from the Planned Parenthood clinic that was around the corner from my university and towards the crisis pregnancy center that was a little further away,” she said.

Pay it forward: Healing for Post-Abortive Women

Sarah believes that her story, that weaves generations together, might help women facing a crisis pregnancy or who have already had an abortion. “Going through a crisis pregnancy myself, I understand how scared a woman becomes, how she can be talked into doing just about anything because her mind is paralyzed by fear.”

“Women who have walked the path of my mother need to know, like my Grandpa said in his poem, that ‘God just wants you back,’” she said. “They, more than anyone else, have the power to help other women facing a crisis pregnancy since they can relate to their fear and the pain.”

Sarah believes that her family’s story reveals that no matter what the details, everyone’s crisis pregnancy and abortion story can have a happy ending.

“To every family member who has a child missing in their family tree due to abortion, do not give up or lose hope. Love heals all,” she said knowingly. “So, celebrate that child and his/her short life and share your story to try and prevent other people in a crisis pregnancy from going through that anguish. You can use your loss to prevent other young losses.”

“Above all,” she says, “believe in second chances and the hope that comes with it.”

A father’s poem to his beloved post-abortive 16-year-old

June 03, 1982, 11 PM

Dear Susan,

The urge to tell my daughter what’s gnawing at my gut.
The agony of watching her slide toward a one-way rut;

There’s nothing quite so devastating to the father’s mind
As finding out he’s dropped-the-ball and now his girl’s entwined.

In mental anguish, doubt and fear
— And, worst of all, self hate —
And questioning there in the mirror
if by now it is too late.

And putting off decision, commitment to repair
the damage done by all involved, the guilt of which I share.

I read a poem a while ago about a test she failed.
Though eloquent it surely was the logic somehow trailed.

As if life granted one big test — and then the Judgement made,
we’d never have a second chance, nor values we could trade.

Thank God it doesn’t work that way. Thank God there’s other chances —
to Accept Him as He said, The Vine, and take our place as Branches.

Discouragement is Satan’s tool that prunes us from the Vine,
He’ll try to get us all messed up, our emotions he’ll entwine.

Then piling on the doubt and fear, he’ll say with exclamation:
Stay back! Go away! You’re just no good — for Reconciliation!

But if you only understood how much He loves you!
Why He hung on that cross!
How much He wants you back!
If you only understood how much He wants you back!
I’m sorry for hurting you so much.
I love you.

Dad

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Congressman: Give us Nucatola or we’ll subpoena

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WASHINGTON, D.C., July 23, 2015 (LifeSiteNews) - Dr. Deborah Nucatola has become awfully shy since she became the first national Planned Parenthood figure featured in an exposé of its practice of harvesting, and allegedly profiting from the sale of, the organs of aborted children. Within hours of the video release by the Center for Medical Progress, she removed her social media accounts. 

Now, she is considering dodging a call to testify before a Congressional committee investigating whether she admitted to breaking the law during her covertly recorded cameo with actors posing as agents of a human biologics company.

The House Energy and Commerce Committee called her to address the committee by month's end. 

Roger K. Evans, Planned Parenthood's Senior Counsel for Law and Policy, responded by saying that asking her to speak to Congress "no later than July 31 ... is short notice given the number of questions raised." 

He instead offered to substitute Dr. Raegan McDonald-Mosley in Nucatola's place.

Faced with the possibility that Planned Parenthood would refuse to send its star witness, at least one congressman has said he will take steps to ensure the abortion provider shows up.

Rep. Joe Pitts, R-PA, responded to Evans' letter by saying that the committee has called Dr. Nucatola to the witness stand before the end of the month, and she will comply or face the consequences.  

“If they say no, we’ll subpoena her,” the pro-life Republican said. 

The committee is focused on whether the process Dr. Nucatola - the doctor seen in the first video, eating salad and sipping wine - amounts to a violation of federal felony law forbidding the sale of human organs for "valuable consideration." 

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Why selling ‘baby body parts’ has captured America’s attention (VIDEO)

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WASHINGTON, D.C., July 23, 2015 (LifeSiteNews) - A key player in last week’s startling video exposé of Planned Parenthood says that it took 30 months of strategic planning from numerous pro-life organizations to give the story the hard-hitting power with which it has walloped the abortion industry over its practice of harvesting the body parts of aborted babies. 

“We are seeing the fruit of a lot of careful thought, a lot of disciplined activities, and a lot of undercover work,” Rev. Frank Pavone, executive director of Priests for Life, told LifeSiteNews in an interview in Washington. 

Since breaking Tuesday of last week, the story has trended first place in social media platforms such as Facebook and has been given top priority on mega news aggregation websites such as Drudge Report. The first of now two undercover videos has been viewed over 2.5 million times on YouTube. 

Pavone said that this is not the first time Planned Parenthood has faced the heat for what many considered to be a barbaric practice of harvesting human organs for profit. Similar investigations in the late 1990s into the practices of Planned Parenthood found that aborted babies were being dissected alive, harvested, and sold in pieces for research. 

“Now this is fresh evidence. Now this is evidence going to the highest levels of Planned Parenthood. We know that people at the national level of Planned Parenthood are aware of and are admitting that these baby body parts are being harvested, that transactions are taking place, that money is changing hands. And so, this is catching the attention of the American public because it brings the abortion issue down from the abstract level to the concrete,” he said. 

“This is not just about viewpoints, it’s about victims. It’s not just about beliefs, it’s about bloodshed. When people see and hear terms like ‘eyes, livers, hearts’ it’s like, ‘What are we talking about here? This is ghoulish disgusting activity,’” he said. 

Pavone praised pro-life activists such as Operation Rescue president Troy Newman and Life Dynamics president Mark Crutcher for helping the exposé along, giving “strategic input, guidance, and advice.” Pavone highlighted the hard work of lead investigator David Daleiden of the Center for Medical Progress for going undercover to film meetings with high profile Planned Parenthood employees and attending numerous Planned Parenthood conferences.

Pavone believes the story has received so much traction in social media outlets like Facebook because it gives people a platform to express outrage over the injustice of abortion in response to mainstream media’s unwritten rule of silence and apathy on abortion. 

Traditional media outlets are “in the pocket” of Planned Parenthood and the abortion industry, he said, adding that they “don’t want to say a bad word about Planned Parenthood.”

“Social media has become the engine for those who feel so frustrated that things we have known for years that the abortion industry is doing, and yet we can’t seem to get the word out, now these people are taking this and running with it. And I think you’re seeing years and even decades of frustration being channeled in productive ways to say, ‘We’ve got to shout this from the rooftops.’ And social media is the perfect rooftop,” he said. 

When asked what the undercover videos released so far reveal about the abortion industry and the people who work in it, Pavone responded: 

When an abortionist dehumanizes the baby that he or she is about to kill, the abortionist also dehumanizes himself. And this is what we are seeing in these people. We see it in Deborah Nucatola sipping the wine and eating the salad and talking about the body parts. We see it in the newest video [about] Dr. Mary Gatter. We saw it in [jailed abortionist] Gosnell.

What’s wrong with [these people]? There are two things wrong. Number one, these people are dehumanized. They are deeply damaged by the abortions they perform. Because when you perform your first abortion, a voice of protest rises up within you saying, ‘No. Stop. You can’t do this.’ But then if you ignore that voice, and go ahead and do that abortion, then the next time you have to explain to yourself, and to everybody else, why you ignored that voice. And so, the voice of protest gets buried under layer, and layer, and layer of excuses and rationalizations. And in doing that, you are becoming disconnected from your own conscience.

How can these people talk about this with apparent peace on their face? It’s because they are disconnected from themselves, from their own conscience.

Pavone said that new undercover videos to be released in the coming days will continue to shed light on the gruesome practices happening at Planned Parenthood abortion centers across the nation. 

“We want to defund Planned Parenthood and get them to stop what they are doing. This is a very concrete way of doing that. We want to end Planned Parenthood because they are the largest abortion business in the world, and we want that to stop,” he said. 

Already a Congressional investigation is underway, but so far, Planned Parenthood is refusing to cooperate with the demands of the Committee investigating. 

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The Planned Parenthood scandal shows the power of exposing abortion’s grotesqueness

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July 23, 2015 (UnmaskingChoice) -- If there’s one thing that confuses me about how many pro-lifers decide on strategies to change hearts and minds on abortion, it’s the fact that they seem to believe that we have to approach the most controversial issue there is without controversy—that somehow, we have to take an issue that people have incredibly strong feelings about and ensure that none of those feelings surface during a discussion.

As our postcard campaign nears our record-breaking mark of one million postcards delivered to one million homes, reactions have been widely varied—we have phone calls from people “horrified” by the postcard, who don’t seem to realize that the action depicted is much more horrifying. We have people who demand to know what they are supposed to say if their children see the picture of “the dead baby”—who don’t seem to realize that with their own words, they have admitted that we live in a country where dead babies are tossed in garbage cans behind government-funded clinics. We also have people who call us to thank us for the information, and express anger that such barbarism could be happening in Canada. We have people who phone to tell us that the postcard has changed their vote, and the votes of their neighbors. And we have people like the old man who wanted to shake my hand because he was encouraged to see that “some people cared about things.”

Huge numbers of Canadians have no idea that abortion decapitates, dismembers, and disembowels a pre-born human being. Huge numbers of Canadians are being exposed to that tragic and horrifying fact.

By the polling numbers, we see many people influenced against abortion—even if they don’t like us, the image stays with them, and they like abortion even less. Even if only ten percent of people were influenced against abortion because of postcards depicting abortion imagery, I would point out that that is still a far bigger number than any other pro-life strategy even claims to impact. For the first time, statistically significant portions of the population are being exposed to the reality of abortion—and they are reacting to that reality.

Pro-lifers are often tempted to run scared because they believe what the pro-abortion movement says about our best evidence—that it will “turn people” off. It will, of course. In the words of one abortion activist: “Your pictures turn people off of abortion.” If people get angry with us, but are still influenced against abortion, we have accomplished exactly what we set out to do. That being said, people only focus on the angry commenters that they see—a handful of social media posts, and the same tired news story from each and every single media outlet. I’m not sure if most journalists are unimaginative or just lazy, but most seem unwilling or incapable of even visiting a few websites and trying to find out what the rationale behind the strategy is. Most of them, I suspect, have pre-written stories and just call around to get the quotes they want. We know, for example, that reporters have specifically ignored people who have received the postcard and offered to comment positively—that is not, they openly say, the story they are looking for.

The abortion movement, on the other hand, can’t decide whether the imagery we use is extremely effective, or very ineffective. Canadian abortion blogger “Fern Hill” is usually babbling the talking points about how what we’re doing is so counter-productive, and that we’re obsessed with “gore porn,” and then calling us a bunch of names. (If pro-abortion groups really did believe that what we were doing strengthened support for abortion so much, I suspect that they’d be a lot less angry about what we’re doing—after all, we’re just doing their job!) But a couple of days ago, after responding to pictures of the dozens of lovely young women on our staff by snapping that they were all one unplanned pregnancy away from being pro-choice (such a depressing world these people live in), she tweeted an article at me that I found interesting.

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It was a piece on David Daleidan of the Center for Medical Progress, the man behind the recent exposes of Planned Parenthood. He’s captured video of Planned Parenthood employees casually discussing not only the abortion procedure, but also how to best pillage the corpses of these dead children in order to sell their body parts for profit. The videos have horrified people across North America, and reaction has been swift. Amanda Marcotte, a pro-abortion blogger who often writes for Slate, has responded to the new scandal in an article called “Grossing people out can have short-term impact, but does it matter in the long-term?” She quotes Michelle Goldberg over at The Nation:

Further, it’s a way for the anti-abortion movement to focus the abortion debate on the graphic details of rare, late-term procedures, about which there is less public consensus than there is about early abortion. It serves the same purpose as the ban on so-called “partial-birth abortion,” and as blown-up pictures of bloody fetuses. It induces disgust, a very politically potent emotion, since most people associate things that are gross with things that are immoral. In his book The Righteous Mind: Why Good People Are Divided by Politics and Religion, Jonathan Haidt describes how researchers asked students at Cornell University to fill out surveys about their political attitudes while standing either near or far from hand sanitizer. Those standing closer to it became temporarily more conservative. If something that minor can affect people’s politics, then a video like this one is sure to have a visceral impact.

Amanda Marcotte goes on to say that while abortion imagery and exposes are very potent, that the impact of them is not long-lasting. Why? Because, she writes with hilarious immaturity, most things in life are gross—sex, going to the bathroom, surgery—and we all get over those things, don’t we? So surely abortion pictures will also be forgotten.

She’s forgetting something—abortion pictures aren’t powerful because they’re “gross.” Abortion pictures are powerful because they show the results of abortion—a dead, butchered human being. The power in the imagery is that people recognize that, and something in them responds to this injustice. It’s why even the people angry with our postcards have responded to the media by talking about the postcards depicting the “dead babies” or the “slain babies” or the “torn-up babies.” No-one thinks that what they’re looking at is a removed appendix. No one thinks that what they’re looking at is bodily waste. Everyone knows, almost immediately, that what they’re looking at is a dead human.

That is why the impact of abortion pictures doesn’t just disappear. One more piece of evidence? Almost everyone I know in the pro-life movement was convicted to join the pro-life fight because they saw a picture or a video of abortion, including myself. As Marcotte herself pointed out, that was what convicted David Daleidan as well. We now have over forty young people on our staff, all convicted by seeing what abortion does to babies and what they can do about it.

The movement is just getting started.

Reprinted with permission from the Canadian Centre for Bioethical Reform.

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