I lost my virginity when I was a senior in high school. I was 17 at the time, having sex with someone who I thought loved me. He constantly told me that if I loved him, I would show him I loved him and give myself to him. As a young and naïve kid, I listened.
I became pregnant the first time I had sex. I thought such a thing would never happen to me.
When I found out, I was torn. I was living with a very strict family member. There was no way I would be able to have a child while living there. So I turned to the father, who immediately turned on me.
I kept my pregnancy a secret for as long as I could before I eventually had to tell someone. The person I confided in advised me to get an abortion, just as the father had.
When I had my first doctor’s appointment, I was cold all around. This was my time to see if I could keep my unborn child or have an abortion. Someone there told me I was on my way to college, and that having a child would be a bad idea. So I went along with the process.
The next week, my ninth week of pregnancy, was when I had the procedure. It was the most painful thing I've ever experienced. To this day, I can still feel them taking my baby out of me. I still feel the pain of my child. But I could not deal with a child on my own. I had no help.
I regret the decision more today than I did then. I took the easy way out. I am at the point where I can now face the financial responsibilities of a child. I just did not give it a chance.
I was weak, and I gave up on my child. That will always be my biggest regret.
Note: The author of this testimony prefers to remain anonymous. 'Olivia K.' is a pseudonym.